Confessions of a confused mind..

Ya know it used to be that Monday through Friday was work, work, work, and then finally the weekend would come and it was time to chill and relax.But now weekends seem busier than ever. I really feel like this little guy..



Hey c'mon I need a break.. Just to think whats going on around me.. Talking to my prof yesterday I see my dreams of spending time sleeping and relaxing during the shaastra fading away. meeting the dead deadlines which i never fix.. Keeping up promises which i never make.. Troubling people whom i really like..Whats going on..? Who is this ..? And why is he doing this..? I don't know.. What difference does it makes to any one..

???...??...

Trivial? Obvious? I don’t know. It’s actually bothering me.

What are my axioms now? Which one should I follow? ^3 ..

whatever?

Who knows..

CraZy NiTeOutS..

These niteouts are really driving me nuts.. but there's nothing much you can do about it when you are least prepared for the quizzes which is going to start 2 days from now.. Sleep deprevation is a funny thing. You can cope on four hours sleep per night. You can cope better in the day time when the sun is up. You can cope at 4am when you convince yourself that morning is just around the corner. The time that is hardest to adjust to, the time it makes your eyes sting and your body heavy, is the wee hours of the night. These are the hours when everyone is sleeping or mugging( talking about my muggu friends) and the LAN has been shutdown. These are the hours when you start calculating the sleep gained the day before and planning intervals of sleep for the following day in hope of some how sqeezing another 45 minutes sleep out of some where. So What am I Doing is to keep myself awake.. PEPSI.. Ya that's the thing which is keeping me up from crashing. Don't ask me how? I have no practical demonstrations other than me to show up. But truly this seems to be my new addiction for this month. I mean it had been only 9 days this month and u can see 14 blue tin cans scattered all over my place.. and still "ye dil mange more.." But coming back to sleep deprivation, the worst thing that can happen to you is being caught by the prof's twice for dozing off in the middle of class sitting in first bench in a single day..

The 8 R F Game...

I have been tagged! I have been tagged.

Smilee tagged me and here I am… eight random facts about me.

# I am an ambivert!! I need to really know a person before I trust him/her, but sometimes I just hit it off really well even without knowing them. In college when I took this test, I scored very marginal marks, one point less, and I would be considered an introvert!!

# I hate tea n coffee. I don’t know why but I never got myself to like this one, no matter what people do. I usually get irritated after drinking tea!!…worse…I feel sick for a couple of hours afterwards!

# I love cooking. No matter what i cook or how it tastes.. I always enjoy doing that..

# I hate Chemistry. I hate chemistry. I HATE CHEMISTRY... and all those prof's who teach chemistry..

# I am addicted to Gaming or u can call me an Gaming Freak. Just one thing i can't live without.. No matter what happens, I have to game almost everyday.. Few friends helping me to overcome this addiction but i think they...

# Smile that come easily to me and I don’t make any efforts to hide it. Many people comment me on that.. But wait.. Whats wrong with that until unless something happens like this.. I mean once we were off to a funeral (Hopes Dad's not angry on this) and after coming back home. Dad asks me " Whats so funny out there that made you smile throughout the ceremony."

# I am very possessive about things..

# I always think I got some psychic powers right from the days I started going to school.. hey C'mon now you don't have to laugh on this.

Finally its over..

enjoy :)

Busy Weekend Ahead..

Got up late after our late night out last night at mandak. After breakfast, we caught Kaspy on the way back to hostel. It added a bunch of new info that our PMT prof has already put up the study material in web for this Weekend. After going through the material I wondered how he had managed to teach all that in just three hours. And assignments..?? Hey c'mon it's just been a week since college started. Ok I've got some more on the subject of stress and strain. It will be done soon, it's taking up head space so I need to pack it up, digest and free my mind from it as soon as possible. Coz I want atleast one day in a week to spend some time with the God and my people.

Do we really need someone to care for..?

Yesterday was an extremely busy day. We had so many activities that I even found no time to dream. Immediately after the lecture we went to the library. After that around 11:30 p.m. I had a surprisingly but a sweet conversation with my friend and that took me completely.. I think and truly believe that everybody needs someone, sometime.. No matter how independent I might seem, even I need that special someone sometime, and I’m sure everyone has the same thing… we need to be with someone, and maybe that’s how we are all programme.. No Wonder.. No Surprise on that.. After reaching hostel I thought of spending some time on comp and there I slip again. . The last time I had my eyes off the screen was when the clock showed 3:30 a.m. I tried to sleep but couldn't. I don't know what was happening to me.. Though I was trying to turn myself off there were many programs still running.. I couldn't terminate them.. I could feel the flow of heat inside my head.. May be this is all because I have been thinking too much these days without proper sleep.. I was sensing disappointments for myself once again.. It was not as usual acads i was thinking of but something more than that.. Finally I felt the need to make things efficient.. So just walked out of my room, drank a glass of water and sitting on the grass outside my hostel started staring at the clouds... I just wished when the sun would rise up and the day gonna start..

I want You to want Me..

I want you to want me.
I need you to need me.
Id love you to love me.
Im beggin you to beg me.

I want you to want me.
I need you to need me.
Id love you to love me.
Ill shine up the old brown shoes, put on a brand-new shirt.
Ill get home early from work if you say that you love me.

Didnt i, didnt i, didnt I see you cryin?
Oh, didnt i, didnt i, didnt I see you cryin?
Feelin all alone without a friend, you know you feel like dyin.
Oh, didnt i, didnt i, didnt I see you cryin?

I want you to want me.
I need you to need me.
Id love you to love me.
Im beggin you to beg me.
Ill shine up the old brown shoes, put on a brand-new shirt.
Ill get home early from work if you say that you love me.

Didnt i, didnt i, didnt I see you cryin?
Oh, didnt i, didnt i, didnt I see you cryin?
Feelin all alone without a friend, you know you feel like dyin.
Oh, didnt i, didnt i, didnt I see you cryin?
Feelin all alone without a friend, you know you feel like dyin.
Oh, didnt i, didnt i, didnt I see you cryin?

I want you to want me.
I need you to need me.
Id love you to love me.
Im beggin you to beg me.
I want you to want me.
I want you to want me.
I want you to want me.
I want you to want me.